My friends are already getting married, landing great jobs, some have japa'd and are touring the world. Here I am, wallowing in self-pity - staggering through the path in life that I chose.
It feels like I disappeared from this world for over 4 years, and when I got back, everything had changed.
Failed at friendships. Failed at love. Where did it all go wrong?
Sure, I need to be grateful for what I have - not everything is as dark as it seems. But everyone else's life just looks better than mine, and I can't help wanting that for myself.
*Hi peeps, just landed a new job...*
*The love of my life and I thank you all for celebrating our wedding...*
*Just graduated from the University of Wales...*
*yada yada yada*
I tell myself - I'm an introvert, not much of a talker. I say I'm busy, don't have time for friendships. So why am I complaining now?
Maybe it's just loneliness.
Where do I go from here? Are these friendships lost forever?
It's 9:20pm, the night's a bit chilly. Everything's quiet except for the fan spinning softly. Scrolling through my feed, seeing another post about success and achievements even in January, and I can't help but wonder - where are yours, Haleemah?
Anyways, enough self-pity and ramblings. Time to get back to work.
You left me in the friendship halfway. I didn’t even know I was befriending myself. No friendship is lost but are you willing to do the work? Instead of ranting, why not reach out to friends that you have lost?
Signed,
Aishat Ache
Pained Ex friend